I am so happy today... my brother got a $1000 bursary yesterday from his college!! That will at least put his mind at ease about his studies. He's a good kid and a smart kid, but he tends to worry over his and our family's financial situation more than anything which I think (aside from his health) holds him back from doing what he wants to do a lot of times. I'm looking forward to my new business and the freedom it's going to give me. We won't have to worry about the cost of my brother's medication ever again, won't have to worry about his tuition and my mom can retire and do whatever she wants!! That future is just on the other side of the road.
Possibly the biggest fear of mankind is the fear of not knowing. Not knowing what's going to happen, not knowing what we're doing, not knowing where we're going. It's scary when you take a step forward but what lies ahead is so new and uncertain, you start thinking that maybe you should play it safe and step backwards, back into the comfort zone you've known so well... even though you know that doing so is not a good decision. That's when you know that it's time to move on from what you're doing. It's time to do something else. When there's even an inkling of such an emotion, you know you've been in one place way too long and sticking around isn't doing anyone any good.
Japan was hit with an 8.9 mag earthquake yesterday, followed by a massive tsunami. I didn't even know about the earthquake until I got to the airport at 6am in the morning and the lady at the check-in told us that the Narita Airport was closed until further notice. I've been watching footage and reading articles online... it's a lot more devastating than I thought it was. I was getting messages, emails and phone calls to see if I was ok. I thank everyone for their concern =)
So now the airport has apparently reopened and we've rebooked our tickets to leave for Japan on Monday, March 14. While I'm excited to go to Japan since I've never been there before, at the same time I can't help but feel a little nervous. It seems a little weird that everyone's trying to leave Japan and go home but we're going there instead. I've been told that the news makes a bigger deal about the situation than it actually is and that it happened in North Japan so its impact on Tokyo is that it's merely an inconvenience. Yes this is coming from someone that's lived in Japan for a few years, but at the same time she's never experienced something of this scale while she was living there. How will she know what types of aftershock will occur? I know there are lots of earthquakes in Japan, but I've never been in one and there's definitely a high chance I will be experiencing one while I'm there. I am not looking forward to that at all.
Aside from that, we're going for a business trip but I don't know how great it's going to be. I'm sure this earthquake/tsunami will be on people's minds for a long time but going in so quickly after it happened to talk business is probably not the best thing to do. It feels a little inhumane and uncaring to me as well. It's like walking in going "Sorry for your loss but let's talk about business." She said business is usual in Tokyo already but it still just doesn't feel right to me. But then again, who am I to say anything. I've already voiced my concerns and opinions but whatever she decides I can't stop her. She's my boss and I've already paid for half of the flight.
Let's hope everything will work out fine. Let us for for Japan. Let us all pray for all those affected by the earthquake and tsunami.
Someone once told me that the ones who smile a lot tend to be the most troubled cos they're hiding behind the smile. I don't want to believe that statement as being true for a second. I guess I'm just having a low time right now with everything that's been going on. Not the best phase to start off the new year, but I'm hoping it will stable out before the Chinese New Year. I was always afraid of being really happy and riding on highs cos I knew that I always ended up falling the moment I passed the next corner. But I've come to realize that high can be as a result of someone else's happiness. My wish is that I can continue riding on a high as a result of your happiness. I will try to patiently await for that day but until then, hang in there...
Wow it's been a little while since I last wrote (November?) A few things have happened considering December's a busy month cos of Christmas alone! It was extra busy this year cos the band had 2 gigs so a lot of time went into rehearsing.
I bought a new bass so the first December gig on the 17th was it's debut! I think it's an absolutely sexy bass and the sound quality is awesome. I pondered over it for a few weeks and "test-drove" a few (buying a bass is like buying a car... has to jive well with you!) before finally settling on it. Apparently it was the first time they ever had one of it's kind in the store. When they brought it out for me to check it caught all the staff's attention... including the manager himself! I think I spent the entire week polishing it lol!
The 2 gigs went quite well and were fun as usual! I was a little taken aback by how the people were behaving at the New Year's Eve gig though... full-grown adults older than me acting like teens, dancing on tables and just plain going crazy! It was definitely a sight to see but nonetheless lots of fun! I was starting to come down with something cos my throat was getting sore after singing the first song, so I'm glad I only sing a few songs... I'll stick to playing the bass thank you!
The children's choir I play accompaniment for also had their fundraiser banquet to raise money for their China tour in August of this year. Aside from the conductor, I've never really been appreciated at the choir before but I've always let it slide since I love music so much and the kids are so darn cute! But a line was crossed at this banquet so I'm saying "so long" and going my way. Which sort of leads to my New Year's resolution I guess! I was asked on New Year's what my resolution was and I didn't have one then but I have one now... to do what I want to do and whatever makes me happy. I'm no longer going to do favors for people to humor them, making myself believe that what they wanted is what I also want. I also have to thank my friend for truthfully telling me that no one asks for favors... they just write my name down and just tell me later. From now on I'm going to start using the word "no". Sorry to those that this comes as a shock to!
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