Bitearsweet

There's so much that I have to do and so much I want to hopefully do that I don't know where to start. Still don't know where everything is going to take me, and it never goes the direction I want it to anyways. Not very sure what's happening with dance next year... I'm starting to really dislike the school and the way it operates. Basically some people in one of my classes feel that we got shafted for the performance next weekend cos the other class basically gets to do their entire dance while ours has been cut in half. Apparently it was requested that the other class we're combining with do their entire dance because of how well they did this year. While I don't really care (wow that's so bad...) at the same time I kinda understand how they feel. It was poorly planned by the show organizers if you ask me. I've seen so much favouritism this year that it just sickens me. I don't have that kind of money to carelessly spend. $70 a month to go every week and do something that will only last 1 minute and a half... no thank you. I'm only showing up because I'm in another part of the show plus I don't want to put my instructor in a difficult position. I wonder if they see what they're doing and how wrong it is... I have so much more respect for the dancers I met in Korea now. They definitely do it for the love of dance. I mean I'm not saying there aren't people that do favouritisim and operate like they do here, but everyone I've met so far, no matter how well-known or good they are (a lot of them are known throughout Asia and internationally), would never shaft another dancer that way. They should have just either pulled us completely or make it fair. Now it just makes everyone in my group feel like crap and that we're not good enough, which is NOT true. And like usual, I don't want to hurt anyone and I don't want to make any enemies so I don't say anything that puts me on anyone's side.

I'm definitely very similar to Shuji. It was like watching myself... wow...